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is not Forever
and Tammy never thought "we" would ever end, and that we would go on
together forever, as anything else was unthinkable. We both loved each other and
needed each other more than words could ever say. |
Tammy was born in 1985
and in 1986 I was given a life expectancy of 20 years, so I hoped that we would
both go together.
Fate was not to be so kind.
14 years and 9 months Tammy collapsed, just months earlier the vet had said how
well she was doing for her age.
I flung myself out of my wheelchair to sit
next to her on the floor. I am not sure that Tammy even knew that I was there.
Two years earlier Tammy had been very unwell with an infection, and the vet said
that she had only months left to live. I refused to believe it, even when she
was very ill, she would still look at me and her eyes were saying "come on
Mum lets play" On this day though there no was no such look, her eyes were
far away. The unthinkable was happening and there was nothing I could do, except
to sit by her and stroke her and tell her repeatedly how much I loved her, and
I tried to pretend that it would all be OK and she would pull through like the
could not stand at all and lay helpless, and my love for her could do nothing.
I tried to get her to lap water from my fingers but she didn't. Eventually we
managed to syringe some water into her mouth, After that she seemed more alert,
I think she may have known I was there with her (I hope so )|
vet was doing quarantine and could not come out, so my sister phoned another vet,
and explained the situation. If my angel's life had to be ended I wanted it to
happen in her home with her mum by her side. This vet refused to visit saying
the condition sounded treatable with an injection, and if that did not work we
would have to think again. Jackie did the best she could but she said the vet
obviously just did not want to bother to come out. So we made arrangements for
Tammy to be taken to hospital by the pet ambulance, and Jackie would go with her.
She wasn't able to get me off the floor, as I had been passing out when trying
to get up and move. So if the injection did not work and Tammy's life had to be
ended my mother would come home and help me back up into my chair and take me
to the hospital so I could be with Tammy when her life was ended.
It was a
nightmare taking place before my eyes. I worried about Tammy all the time and
now all my worst fears were here in front of me, and there was nothing I could
bond with a true dog is as lasting as the ties of this earth can ever be"
are not dead who live. In the hearts they leave behind"
we waited for the ambulance to come I stroked her head and down her golden ears
like I had done a million times before and my tears fell silently onto her fur.
I told her how much I loved her and would always love her and we would always
be together, I told her that I would see her later. Jackie helped me to bend my
head down so I was able to kiss the top of her head like I had always done when
I was still able.|
Tammy barked when the ambulance man rang the doorbell -
protecting me to the end. He came in and stroked her head and lifted her up into
his arms and turned around to me Tammy was looking right at me and it reminded
me of the very first time I saw her in my sisters arms nearly 15 years earlier.
I waved my trembling fingers, and all I could say was bye bye. I believed then
that I would see her later.
I trembled all alone in a heap on the kitchen
floor and hoped beyond hope that the vet was being truthful and it was treatable
and the injection would make her better. I looked at the cold empty place where
she had been laying just moments before and cried and cried with a wrenching pain
pulling me inside out. The mobile phone by my side rang, I knew it would be my
"The vet says she has got to have the injection" I knew
from the way she said it that she did not mean the injection to make her better.
" To kill her ?" I asked "yes" she replied "they can't
wait for you to get here" She held the phone to my Tammy's ear and Jackie
said she showed some recognition when she heard my voice.
"I love you
Tammy I will always love you, and we will always be together" I blew her
a kiss and asked Jackie to kiss her on the top of her head like I always did.
being together for nearly 15 years my best friend, my angel, mummy's little angel
fluff's life was ended without me by her loving side.
Tammy was the most loving
caring beautiful dog, and did not deserve an end like that. Apart from the person
who loved her more than anyone else in all the world.